The old guy, the icon, and me.

Last Monday, I got to go to an advanced screening of My Week with Marilyn thanks to Calgary Fashion and Alliance Films.

It’s based on the book “The Prince, the showgirl, and me”, which is based on Colin Clark’s six months on set with Sir Laurence Olivier and Marilyn Monroe.

As much as it’s about a first job on a film set, on a deeper level it’s about insecurities, expectations and first love. I enjoyed the movie because it’s about Marilyn (big, huge crush), but mostly because it really made me think.

I took October’s date, who ended up being November’s date. He took me to the ballet, that’s worth a second chance month. (Don’t worry, he doesn’t know the blog URL). He’s ‘the old guy’, Marilyn is ‘the icon’, and then there is me.

We both agreed we could really relate to the main characters; him, the lovestruck Colin and me, the insecure and attention-loving Marilyn. It’s actually quite perfect that we chose those characters – they mirror our non-relationship. We even kind of look like them: the tall and skinny brunette and the short and curvy blonde. I wish appearance was what I saw of myself in her, it wasn’t. It was the way she treated men, it’s the way she found her confidence, it’s the way she saw herself in others.

Post-movie, we talked about first loves aka emotional torture. He’s lucky enough to not have contact with his – I’m lucky enough to still be friendly with mine. Who wins? Neither of us.

I don’t want to ruin the movie for you, so I won’t talk about the plot much. If you have read anything about Marilyn’s life you’ll know it was troubled. She married a handful of times, had a problem with pills and booze, and looked to be validated externally. She couldn’t find the confidence in herself.

One of my favourite quotes in the movie was something along these lines: just imagine what could happen if she knew how extremely talented she was.

Breathe that one in. Imagine what you could do if you realized your full potential.

I’m thinking about my dreams and how they can be turned into reality. I’m learning just how talented I am, and embracing it. I’m manifesting greatness up in here, yo. Come along for the ride, won’t you?

Isn’t she so beautiful?!