let your hair down and relax a little with me, won’t you? it’s been a while since we’ve been casual on a friday.

i’m not too pumped about the snowfall on the roofs. being away for six weeks of fall, i feel like i really didn’t get to experience my favourite season. winter has come too quickly, and i found myself only half-jokingly texting the friend i went to mexico with asking when we can go back.

there is a new happiness i’ve found by being home. it was really tough at first; change always causes me to worry – you’d think i’d stop creating so much of it, but no. but now, i’ve experienced the things that convinced me to move: so much sister and family time, long days laughing with my bestie, a quick lunch break catching up with friends on a weekday, (and a new crop of online dating profiles). i had wondered if i made a rash decision (though, it was years in the making) leaving calgary, but i know that’s not the case.

saying this, i have also been anxious about re-joining real life; i’m feeling a great deal of “imposter syndrome”. like i’ll be figured out soon enough – as what, who knows?! – and get fired from any new job i get within the first month. how does that fear go away? why am i such a nervous person? i’d love to blame it on menstruating, but we’ll see what happens next week.

i learned how to read! no, that doesn’t sound right. i knew how to read read, but i’ve only recently learned how to read books. i never knew how to sit still and hold a book without my neck or arms hurting; how do you get comfortable? it takes more concentration than one thinks. but since we got back from Europe i’ve read 11 books and have a goal to finish 15 by the time the year is through. i haven’t really narrowed down which genres i like yet, but nothing too scary. if you have any suggestions, i’d love to hear!

with all of this reading, i’ve been thinking more about my book lately. i don’t want to abandon that dream yet, which probably means i should actually schedule out some time. they always say the busiest people are the most productive, so maybe creativity will come once i’m busy doing other stuff? plus, from some of the stuff i read – they publish some really bad writing/storylines, so i may be in luck!

sister promised me breakfast doughnuts from the guelph farmer’s market tomorrow morning, so i already know my weekend will be great. hope yours is, too!

i’ve been inviting all sorts of positivity into my life for a while now and with each passing day, i can actually see how it has been affecting my outlook and daily energy. there is just far too much negativity out there and it seems complaining is the popular thing to do nowadays. no thanks, i have no interest in that! i’m all about smiling, and laughing, and twirling, and hugging, and telling people how much i adore them. i have plenty of time for all of that good stuff!

saying that, this week has shown me that i need a lesson in managing my expectations. all this positivity allowed me to get my hopes too high for a few things. as sister says, “low expectations.” maybe even a bit lower than that. i’m feeling a bit emotional about it all today, but know the only option is to just keep being me.

do you name things? last night at the barre body studio’s five-year anniversary party, i planted a succulent – that included a buried intention and a crystal of my choosing – with the help of one of their great instructors. “her name’s Ophelia,” Hilary exclaimed! yes, that’s definitely her name. it made me think, i have named my vehicles (Suby and Mable) and named my laptop and phone (Otis and Goldie), why haven’t i named my plants? how unlike me. now that i’ve welcomed Ophelia to the family, i’ll have to go back and name my three other plants in the living room.

i have a few very fun days ahead of me. i’m checking into the Calgary Airport Marriott In-Terminal Hotel tonight for a weekend staycation, and then going to The Bash wedding event with H and more of her lovely girlfriends on sunday – after brunch, of course.


what are you up to this weekend?

looking back at photos of san francisco are both warming and cruel. but when it feels like -32 you have to daydream a little. it also has me looking at flights.

have you defrosted, friends? this week has been all frozen boogers and eyelash icicles (which, i must admit, are rather pretty).

this cold weather has me craving mac&cheese so badly. the homemade kind that i haven’t made in years, but probably should because it’s so delicious, but you know, not the healthiest, and there is absolutely no way to enjoy it in moderation. you can’t. you just can’t. you have to make the largest pot of it and eat it until you need to take a nap. maybe it’s for the best the forecast is warming up. let me know if you want to come over for mac&cheese.

to be honest, since being home all i can think of is really great food. calgary is catching up in terms of new and different restaurants, but the abundance of killer cuisine available in toronto makes me so happy. i ate very well with friends during my visit. i think my favourite combination is talking to great people while eating delicious food. that’s the kind of stuff that fills my tank.

are you a new year goal setter? i’m not, but i did take some time as the calendar switched over to reflect on the year and set my sights forward. i’m feeling a lot of pleasure from slowing things down, keeping things simple and embracing the ride. i’ve got my positive pants on, but they are still realistic pants. tres fashionable and maybe the only pair of pants that still fit me.

poor erin is sick again, which means no catching up nor scrumptious french food tonight, but we’ll take a raincheck. this weekend is made for resting, finishing the numerous organizing projects i started during the week, some friend time and some baby cuddling. i know, i know but when it belongs to one of your dearest friends, babies might be kinda cute.


what are you up to this weekend?